Why do we hurt the ones we love? Why do we stick around to get hurt? Yeah couple have their arguments, their disagreements. I’ve never been through as much with this man in a relationship with any other man. I love him. I would risk my life for him, and of course most importantly my son. He gave me my son, the best most beautiful gift anyone has ever given me. Why am I making this so public. We’ve had who knows how many arguments, fights and disagreements. So why this time why put it out there… Because @jacqueezzyy you deserve an apology. I’ve gone to jail over this relationship, we been through alot. We have the ability to bring out the best in each other and boy do we have the ability to bring out the worst. I am sincerely sorry for hurting your feelings. If only… If only I could take back how mean I could be, if only I could rewind and say things in a different tone. But I can’t and that’s the shitty part about it… Emotional scars don’t fade. If there was a cocoa Shea butter for emotional scars I’d rub you down every day. I love you and I never mean to hurt you. I would understand if you didn’t accept my apology. But I thank you and thank God you’re still around. The only guy to have ever accepted me for me, to embrace me, the only man to not only tell me how much he loves my body but actually shows me. When I asked him ” why do you want to marry me” his response was something along the lines of ” because I want you there during my last days, I want to hold your hand when I die, I want to grow old with you”… I’ve never had anyone say such things to me. We are not perfect our relationship is a roller coaster with whiplash and getting stuck in the loop hanging upside down but at the end you wanna go again. I’m sorry boo..